Last letter

I don't know if I will have the time to write anymore letters
because I might be too busy trying to participate.
So if this does end up being the last letter,
I just want you to know that I was in a bad place before I started high school
and you helped me.

Even if you didn't know what I was talking about
or know someone who's gone through it.
You made me not feel alone.

Because I know there are people who say all these things don't happen.
And there are people who forget what it's like to be sixteen when they turn seventeen.
And know these will all be stories someday
and our pictures will become old photographs
and we'll all become somebody's mom or dad.
But right now these moments are not stories.

This is happening.
I am here and I am looking at her
and she is so beautiful.
I can see it.
This one moment when you know you're not a sad story,
you are alive.
And you stand up and see the lights on buildings
and everything that makes you wonder,
when you were listening to that song
on that drive with the people you love most in this world.

And in this moment, I swear, we are infinite.



我已經許久沒有這種感覺了，就是好像無限無限的一條路一直筆直的走下去，只有我一人和夜風輕輕地搔刮著我的面頰，如果有一天我真的放棄寫任何東西，那我想，我就是真的打從心底開心了，再也不會有那些賣弄風雅的孤獨來刺傷我自尊，也沒再有人有能力說我的不是，讓我感到悲傷，或者無力，或者無用了。

可是我現在還在寫，所以我仍舊是無法大步大步地走在那無限的筆直的路上，我好想要趕快看到那一天。

If it looks like a duck, swims like a duck, and quacks like a duck, then it probably is a duck.

青玉案

青玉案 辛棄疾

東風夜放花千樹，更吹落星如雨。
寶馬雕車香滿路，鳳簫聲動，玉壺光轉，一夜魚龍舞。

蛾兒雪柳黃金縷，笑語盈盈暗香去。
眾裏尋他千百度，驀然回首，那人卻在，燈火闌珊處。

這首詞真熱鬧！有像流星那般多的花燈，有載著貴夫人的華麗馬車，轉動個不停的魚燈、龍燈，有用玉裝飾得光閃閃的玉壺，還有女孩的笑語。
這麼喧嘩的場面，作者卻寂寞的穿梭在人群中，到處尋找，找他心中的俏佳人。但他尋了千百次，望穿了人群，還是不見佳人的蹤影。正在傷心絕望時，不經意的一回頭，那站在稀稀疏疏燈火下的人兒，不正是她嗎？
經過這一番折磨，見到時的喜悅，更是文字所無法形容的。所以，王國維曾說古今以來成大事、做大學問的，總會經過三種艱苦的境界，而辛棄疾這句「眾裏尋他千百度，驀然回首，那人卻在燈火闌珊處」就是第三個境界，也就是有成就以後的心境最佳寫照了。

-摘錄自華一書局《兒童啟蒙文學》

why i am so useless

after so many years,
still fell in the same situation.
and react the same way by endless crying.

終於回台灣了

大年初三回到台灣，從那天開始都是一片混亂。帶著Jostian的爸媽到處跑，也沒什麼時間休息到，自己明明就也很不熟的地方還裝做很懂的樣子介紹給別人，拿著天豪介紹的餐廳名單一間一間打電話，趁著幾個沒人注意的空檔偷親我的寶貝，輪流坐著Aaron的好幾部不同的車遊台中，看他們玩go-kart幫他們照相，打棒球玩投籃機，東海夜市，到處吃好吃的，一起去看好白痴的草泥馬，跟爸媽吃飯見面，買太陽餅，坐高鐵，上夜店......短短的一個多禮拜裡面見到了四個月沒見到的寶貝，除了像預期的一樣牽牽手一起去吃好吃的東西，還有抱抱按按之外，最重要最重要的就是對未來的規劃又再朝前了一步，在此宣布，我即將前往新加坡！！！...........but......護照過期了......不能去 >___< 明天得先去外交部，接下來要看會計師道德考試，還有申請certificate步驟啥的一堆有的沒的，新的累死人生活開始。 XD